First week in one of the country’s biggest networks ended. I ate lunch alone during the first day. Thank God for Starbucks, where being alone doesn’t feel lonely.

I cannot wait anymore for that day…

Long weeks have passed. And I thought that everything will be settled now. But it didn’t get any better.

I was hoping for a sunnier tomorrow but then I was still locked up in yesterday’s mistakes.

Yes, I admit that I made a very wrong decision. And I have been dealing with it, facing it with so much optimism even if I know what’s inside me, I’m giving up. I’m giving it up.

I never felt so wrong in my entire life even when all I did was to desperately make everything right.

I have spent so much tears already… It’s emotionally more tormenting than physically being tiring… I do not want to go on with this anymore. Maybe it wasn’t really meant for me at this time because from Day 1 every thing has been so wrong…

After giving it so much thought (insomia till 5am, tears until you can’t breathe)

Maybe of all the decisions I made just to hold on and push through…

Letting go will make everything right…