I can’t wait to go home.

I can’t wait to redecorate my room. I can’t wait to dye my hair and go to gym and feel fabulous again. I can’t wait to see my girlfriends, dine out with them and take loads of pictures. I can’t wait to take a short course of something that interests me; or join a theater workshop. I can’t wait to go on my one-day-a-week-me-time-date.

There’s just so much that I am feeling right now. So much. Everyday I would still wake up in disbelief, it’s like I always always always experience the aftershock. And never recovers from it.

The emotions are always like a dormant volcano that would suddenly turn active any time it wants. Sometimes I would sit still, numb, steady. Then a few seconds after, I’d began feeling this… this… confusion.

I can’t wait for that day when this phase of me would end.

PS: OMG. I feel so FAT today. It’s like all the calories would go straight to my arms. Aaaaauuuuuuggggghhhh !!! My diet-momentum disappeared on thin air along with everything else; I can’t let this happen!!! Diet Diet Diet, Exercise Exercise Exercise! Augh!!!