It’s 1:31 am on my clock and I’m wide awake, of course. Insomia’s kicking in again. The new week starts today, and I have been dreading and expecting this week at the same time.

The reality of internship returns. I do not know what will happen to it. I have so many thoughts in my mind, lots of uncertainties. I have been carrying this crapload of internship problems for the past two weeks that even in my dreams, I experience them. *sigh*

What will happen to me in that *new* place? What will be *their* reaction? What about my *hours*? Am I doing things right? How should I tell *them*? When should I tell *them*? Do I tell *it* at all?

This is a decision I made a week ago. I have promised myself that I’ll do this because for heaven’s sake, I have to think about myself sometimes. I have to think about what I want now and what I ought to do. Sometimes they go along. I have to follow my parents this time too. They were right all along.

My dad said not to worry, that there are somethings we have to let go when it goes out of hand. It’s not running away. It’s accepting that we have to let go and do something else to save what’s left.

Can I do this? Do I have the strength? Do I have the guts?

I should learn how to step out of my comfort zone and speak out for myself. Be assertive at the right time, at the right place, for the right reasons. Be confident. Be smart.

And more importantly, read the news. Watch the news. Breathe the news.

This week will surely eat me alive if I would remain weak and soft.

I can do this.

God, I’ll lift up this week to you, and everything I will do. My decisions, my actions, I lift them all up to you. Please guide me, protect me, enlighten me. It’ll be a crazy ride, I need you by my side.

Spongecola - Gemini

Happy Easter Sunday!

I tried out Poupee today, and went shopping for my doll. I still can’t understand some parts maybe because it’s Japanese. =.= But I’ll keep on poking around so my doll will have nice clothes too…

Anyway, Holy Week’s ending and another week ahead. I have really important things to attend to… I hope it goes well. I’m quite nervous and uncertain… *sigh*

I want a new domain! But I’m still thinking of a name, I might get one mid this year. For now, I’ll blog here.

Someone sent me a message in Poupee just now… but it was written in some other language! o__o How can I understand that?! Poupee’s a nice game, it reminds me of Elouai, but now I’m thinking twice if I should continue playing…

Goto ^.^ Beef intestine lololol! XD I love!! They forgot the onion leeks though..

I had a really quick trip to the mall awhile ago.  Approximately one and a half hours! We just bought some art materials for my brother. It reminded me of buying a canvas-pad for my painting. I saw one a few months back.

So we had Japanese food…

Tokyo Tokyo was of course, the nearest and the cheapest. I actually like their Beef Teriyaki.

And the veggies that came with it. I love!!

Then a quick trip to my favorite shop in the whole wild wide world (as of now haha). I swear to myself that I’ll just look around… The saleslady knows me already! XD

I swear, I had the urge to ask them why does the shop smells so good…

And then I ended buying this… I swear, it was love at first sight. The moment I saw this a few weeks back. It was love.

I swear I wasn’t buying on impulse. I’ve been eyeing this bag for the longest time already but it’s pricey. I learned that it’s the last one so I decided to buy it. XD Somehow I knew it’s destined for me.

So many “I swear” in this entry! XD

~Anyway, I’ll be coding a lot tonight! I’ll make a tumblr layout then tinker a bit on my block’s multiply. The latter’s long overdue… gommen neh. T.T

Maroon 5 ft. Rihanna - If I Never See Your Face Again

So I mentioned in my previous text post that I’ll make this summer productive… FAIL !!!

I would always wake up at around noon already because I have a hard time sleeping at night. And I end up just turning on the laptop. *sigh* Anyway, I made something in photoshop awhile ago (points up). Custard Angel drawn purely by mouse! XD I didn’t use layers because I got lazy =.= It would have been better though…

I want a new tumblr layout! I want to make one but I don’t have ideas yet… I have a feeling that I’ll blog here for a long time.

Mom knows best. When she warned me not to iron my hair everyday, she’s right! Now, I always have a really bad hair day. I don’t even want to touch it! T.T

I need a rebond soon.

I dreamt of something really awful, it felt so real.

Carrie Underwood - Starts with Goodbye

Oh my gosh. I really need to get a life.

I want to go out! To the beach, to The Fort, to the malls… but it’s not possible. *sigh* So here I am with my laptop, and even if it’s not my choice, we are seemingly inseparable. *second sigh* And it’s so not good because it resulted to the hugest eyebags and headaches every now and then.

I need to part with this thing asap.

So while I was browsing food sites and make-up blogs… I figured that there are still some things I can do at home aside from surfing the internet or spending so much hours on Facebook!

• I can seriously start practicing how to put on make-up.
• I can paint or draw again.
• I can read a book.
• Or even learn how to cook.

(heh, that rhymes!)

So yeah… I’ll start tomorrow!

I hope I can keep up with this! I don’t want another summer wasted in front of the computer… gambatte neh!

Keyshia Cole - This is Us

Bicol Express with Crabs! Happy 53th Birthday Mama!~

Git Fresh - Booty Music